For a few days now I have been struggling anew with a desire to put momentary pleasure above higher fulfillments–indulge old habits that I know are ultimately destructive. And why? This whole struggle against unwise behavior comes down to one question: Which life do I really want?
If I can answer this question with conviction, then the struggle melts away. If I really want a life of higher fulfillment, then the voice of temptation fades. My struggle waxes and wanes with my conviction, and my conviction waxes and wanes with my feelings about higher fulfillment. When I am thinking that this idea of higher fulfillment is all a bunch of hooey, then I begin to struggle again with the urge to indulge the “beast”.
My task, then, is to focus on the question of higher fulfillment, because only as that concept solidifies in my mind will I avoid the poisonous infiltration of the beast.
[...] | Tags: fulfillment, life, love, meaning, morality, philosophy, sex, thoughts I struggle with the conflict between fulfilling my base desires and living for higher fulfillment. But I forget that it is not [...]